when adjustment isn't a nice thing

November 21, 2008 - Friday

due to alot things.. bitch who supposedly accommodating me coz im just a newbie but there making me out of place, eating lunch at 3pm, going home at 8pm (and later for my officemates)... my heart can't handle anymore.. what i did was i went lunch by my lonesome self.. called my friend Cathy at cried at the phone.. can't take this anymore... i ate my instant noodles at the not-so-nearby seaside.. if ever people are staring at me and thinking why my eyes are reds and swollen, i dont care anymore.

thats the first time i cried that hard bcoz of work..

November 22, 2008 - Saturday

Apparently, yesterday one of my seniors from the other division but still within Human Resource Department, went to me and asked if there is something wrong with me (she saw me last friday and she noticed)

being a drama queen as i am, i cried in front of her *take note im in my office seat good thing there only few people who apprently noticed me*. Ang just comforted me by saying its alright.. blah blah.. of course i was ashamed admitting im hurt but i have to let those nasty stuff inside me off so i could be free from them.

later, 2 of my officemates who noticed me crying that time asked me why and of course i just said thats nothing. But one of them, pointed out that i shouldnt trust a person easily. Apparently, that senior whom i confided with awhile ago is said one of "turncoats" in the office. For a while i felt nervous coz she could use what i said against me someday, but what can i do? its a surge of feelings. I didnt expect someone not from my own division would be so nice to me like that --something i expect more with people surrounding me. I was always prejudged as snobbish at similar so i was really glad there's someone who at least cared for what i feel during that time when i needed someone most. I still have a long way to run and more things to learn, but I will not forget those people who's surprisingly concerned about me...

chibi yuyan and the girl who believed in miracles

D-Boys episode 8 is Endo Yuya-riida's turn

*cuddly!!~~*

*noticed he didnt grew up?*

anyway...

being a basketball fanatic, his task is to do a long shot
but there's a twist: a girl who was inspired by D Boys's challenges from former episodes wrote a letter to the team asking her to also give courage to confess to a guy she likes.

100 LONG SHOTS...

for a hopeless romantic girl ^^

wait, next one contains spoilers dont read if you dont want to:

to summarize the ep... Yuyan didnt made it when the girl was there (she has a curfew)

but little did they know that these 2 kids are secretly watching them and cheering for riida-san

chan-naka and yanagi ^^

fanboying *kawaaii*

and finally....

the result? with Endo's who made a miracle by believing in himself

and the girl was able to confess to the guy,

but the bottomline is:

the guy likes someone else so he cant accept her *aawww*

BUT... girl whoever in Japan you are.. be proud..

you may not have him but the whole experience made you more mature...

thank you and Endo Yuya for making us see a miracle ^^

the chibilady is now an office lady

okay, im officially hired, got my uniform, hitting the morning rush hour on the train...

yesterday, had my company orientation... aside from the inevitable boredom, lack of sleep (coz of being anxious the last night), and hunger.. The company is strict, alot of shits and all that jazz, still the bottomline is: I WASNT INFORMED OF MY TAKE HOME PAY YET *glare*

November 19, 2008 - First Day Funk (or Fuck?!)

Welcoming wasnt a biggie. Just few words of the head and i was asked to read that thick crappy module (which of course just scanned a bit just for the sake of art). At first as if no one is minding me at all.. well most likely because tommorow is payday so everybody works as a bee. Whats worse is that i got my luch at 2 pm which is not humane! and its very normal! WTF! i wasnt just culture shocked but also culture electrocuted!!! So i was thankful that somehow they approached me and eventually i feel ok.

now im officially doomed.. no boyfriend, cant hang out with friends, fangurling subsided...

welcome to the real world huh..

chibi chan-naka

*Nakamura Yuichi aka Chan-Naka of D Boys in his younger years*



very cute indeed ^^ kissu~~!!



*Chan-naka as he hears his challenge in DD Boys episode 5 *

look at his innocent slash nervous look... its like i want to hug him (^_^)v
its a must watch.. he's really a superb dancer

i cant wait for other DD Boys episode

envious with a kiss

*Miura Shohei's role Nozomu kissing his ditzy looking girlfriend courtesy of Koizora drama*

this shot gave me thrills and annoyance at the same time. I admit it was a very very cute kiss *i seriouslu giggled after!). Annoyed because with the heck would he do it with that girl?! He could have done it with me!!!!!!!!!!! *screams*



i dont have a particular crush with Shohei but he has this freshness ^^ *aawwww!*

why blogspot?

got livejournal (so i can dL jdramas) and multiply (so i could dL songs from user playlist--now defunct)... then theres the overrated friendster not to mention all those sites and forums i registered in because of fangirling. haha!

btw... since im lurking in d-boys site lately i saw their blogs and they just put random stuff and the text is not neccesarily long plus, they put pics of whatever they like (their lunch, candid shots, coffee etc etc). Being inspired with them, i decided to start (AGAIN) my own blog.. something i failed to be successful at with my LJ and multiply account. not to mention that i have personal friends in multiply and they might read all my posts about Japanese Entertainment (which im really planning to do!).. thats why i stick to blogspot ^^

oh yeah.. i have this "at first only" attitude.. i try to be diligent with blogging okay?

first post and welcome to me!! ^^

omg!! its my first post.. well... im just really happy this day coz after 6 frgging months of feeling useless at last im going to work with my country's biggest and largest mall!! woohoo! who cant be happier?! got my uniform a while ago.. and it fits me well (as my co-starter commented). 3/4's blouse and mini-skirt must be so in, isnt it? haha!